[The whole world stops. For a moment, Nathaniel can't even feel Anders in his arms. Everything shrinks down to his own body, and the ticking clock attached.
Five years...no, less than five years into the future, he will hear his Calling.
At one time, he had been unafraid of that. He had accepted it, known it as something he could do nothing about, a Warden's duty like any other. Now, he has something to lose. Now, he will beg, borrow, and steal every minute he gets with Anders. And he can't. There is nothing he can do. Oh, there have been rumors about a cure, the legend of Fiona, who was cured and could never be tainted again. But can such a thing be discovered in less than five years, when Wardens have endured the Calling for centuries?
Nathaniel's arms tighten, and he can feel Anders again. Everything is made simpler with Anders, though he still feels cold. He takes Anders down to their bed and holds him tightly, trying to regain a sense of his life. Happiness. He had been so very happy for such a short time.]
We have two illnesses, [he says hoarsely, quoting a Warden he had known.] One is the taint, and the other is knowing we have the taint. But Anders...Anders, my dearest, my husband, you haven't done anything of the sort. Don't punish yourself for what hasn't happened. You already punish yourself for what has.
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Date: 2017-04-08 06:28 pm (UTC)From:Five years...no, less than five years into the future, he will hear his Calling.
At one time, he had been unafraid of that. He had accepted it, known it as something he could do nothing about, a Warden's duty like any other. Now, he has something to lose. Now, he will beg, borrow, and steal every minute he gets with Anders. And he can't. There is nothing he can do. Oh, there have been rumors about a cure, the legend of Fiona, who was cured and could never be tainted again. But can such a thing be discovered in less than five years, when Wardens have endured the Calling for centuries?
Nathaniel's arms tighten, and he can feel Anders again. Everything is made simpler with Anders, though he still feels cold. He takes Anders down to their bed and holds him tightly, trying to regain a sense of his life. Happiness. He had been so very happy for such a short time.]
We have two illnesses, [he says hoarsely, quoting a Warden he had known.] One is the taint, and the other is knowing we have the taint. But Anders...Anders, my dearest, my husband, you haven't done anything of the sort. Don't punish yourself for what hasn't happened. You already punish yourself for what has.