[Nathaniel hesitates, then leans down to kiss him gently.]
I...I don't know, Anders. I don't want to spend what might be our only years together waiting up for you while you chase something you may never find. And I don't want you to blame yourself if...
[But something shifts a little, and he realizes both of these things may depend on Nathaniel sitting back like a damsel while Anders tries to save him. He gives a faint smile, looking at Anders' beautiful face, amber eyes red with grief for someone he has not yet lost. Nathaniel doesn't want to die. He doesn't want to lose himself long before his end. And if there's any chance that he can buy back the rest of his life that was taken from him at his conscription, he will take it, Grey Warden honor be damned. He came to love this life, but he never chose it, and his service will soon end regardless.]
Well. I will go where you go, and we'll find every moment of happiness we can take. It will be an adventure for us.
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Date: 2017-04-08 07:07 pm (UTC)From:I...I don't know, Anders. I don't want to spend what might be our only years together waiting up for you while you chase something you may never find. And I don't want you to blame yourself if...
[But something shifts a little, and he realizes both of these things may depend on Nathaniel sitting back like a damsel while Anders tries to save him. He gives a faint smile, looking at Anders' beautiful face, amber eyes red with grief for someone he has not yet lost. Nathaniel doesn't want to die. He doesn't want to lose himself long before his end. And if there's any chance that he can buy back the rest of his life that was taken from him at his conscription, he will take it, Grey Warden honor be damned. He came to love this life, but he never chose it, and his service will soon end regardless.]
Well. I will go where you go, and we'll find every moment of happiness we can take. It will be an adventure for us.