[He'd known there was love involved. He'd known from the second time they'd slept together, but he'd been so afraid that most of it was directed toward the man he no longer was.
Anders raises their joined hands and kisses the back of Nate's before looking back up at the archer.]
I let fear hold me back so often. Fear that I can't be loved as I am, fear that someone will go after you to hurt me, fear of something going wrong because it always has.
I...
[Does he love Nate? He thinks of how the man fills his heart, how it feels to be held by the archer, to sleep next to him and with him, and how terrified he is of losing him, and he has his answer.]
One of the things you're not supposed to do as a mage is fall in love. It's too dangerous. To you. To them. But I'm not in the Circle anymore. They can hurt me, but they can't forbid me this. I've fallen in love with you, and it would kill me to lose you.
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Date: 2016-05-11 11:38 pm (UTC)From:Anders raises their joined hands and kisses the back of Nate's before looking back up at the archer.]
I let fear hold me back so often. Fear that I can't be loved as I am, fear that someone will go after you to hurt me, fear of something going wrong because it always has.
I...
[Does he love Nate? He thinks of how the man fills his heart, how it feels to be held by the archer, to sleep next to him and with him, and how terrified he is of losing him, and he has his answer.]
One of the things you're not supposed to do as a mage is fall in love. It's too dangerous. To you. To them. But I'm not in the Circle anymore. They can hurt me, but they can't forbid me this. I've fallen in love with you, and it would kill me to lose you.