No, Nathaniel doesn't get that rush Anders gets when he's pushed. He does get that rush, though, and it's at times like this, when Anders is achingly kind to him, gentle and tender and attentive. Nathaniel has struggled with allowing it, but Anders has always been there with it when he did.
His legs stop directing Anders. His head drops back and his eyes close, attention turned toward the sensations he feels. It helps him to embrace the experience, to avoid feeling guilty and taking control. And when he comes, it's like reaching the crest of a wave instead of smacking into a wall. Every nerve is alive, but there is no pain, and tension only where there needs to be tension.
When he comes back down, his eyes open, and he leans up to kiss Anders, hands caressing and teasing at last, to coax him to the same peak.
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Date: 2017-04-25 12:23 am (UTC)From:His legs stop directing Anders. His head drops back and his eyes close, attention turned toward the sensations he feels. It helps him to embrace the experience, to avoid feeling guilty and taking control. And when he comes, it's like reaching the crest of a wave instead of smacking into a wall. Every nerve is alive, but there is no pain, and tension only where there needs to be tension.
When he comes back down, his eyes open, and he leans up to kiss Anders, hands caressing and teasing at last, to coax him to the same peak.