In spite of doubt. Nate had doubted him. The one person who had called him still good, who'd seemed to show every bit of faith in Anders that Anders couldn't have in himself, had doubted him. Anders feels horribly heavy, and it's not helped by the smug gloating he's getting from Justice. How could someone have faith in an abomination?

"I'm not pining! I'm not... I was trying to communicate! To talk! You got nervous about Zevran no matter how many times I told you he was a friend, despite what he did for us, I thought if you knew when there were feelings then you'd not worry when there weren't any, that you'd... That you would trust me. Not get up and be ready to walk away because you'd no faith."