His fingers clench, tangling a little in Nate's hair at the vibrations of the moan and the follow up warmth and suction.
"Oh, my love." Words are getting a little more complicated with the mix of sensation and sight. All of this, all of the ways Nate shows how he loves him, makes him continue to feel like the absolute luckiest person in all of Thedas. For Anders this does just as much as what's going on around his cock, and he's getting close to the edge as he resumes the massage, adding a hint of nails.
"I'm, I'm going to cuddle you better than you've ever been cuddled before."
"Mm," answers Nathaniel, his tongue firm against the underside of Anders' cock. He's looking forward to a good cuddle, the weight of Anders in his arms, the smell of his hair in his nostrils. Cuddles are the best times of his life now, he thinks. Those pinpricks from the creation magic are spreading down his neck and arms and shoulders. Everything tingles and relaxes. He can feel the heat and hardness in Anders' cock and knows he is close. He continues to build, one hand going beneath Anders' balls to cup and massage them gently, the weight of them against his palm providing friction.
"Fuck." Nate's palm is so warm, so careful, and Anders feels bliss envelope his mind as he stiffens and releases, groaning, into Nate's mouth. "Fuck," he says again when he's caught his breath, as every joint in his body suddenly feels warm and loose. Frantic, tucked-in-a-hidden-corner sex has nothing on this - nothing on the physical aspect, nothing on the intimacy.
"And I thought I was good," he mumbles, fingers blindly smoothing through Nate's hair. "Come up here to my arms, love."
Nathaniel swallows--it took him practice, a time ago, to swallow instead of spit, but these days he doesn't even think about it. It's cleaner, he eventually decided. He makes sure Anders is good and spent before gently tucking him back away and rising, surging into Anders' arms. He covers him with his body, rolling over him to lie on the far side of the bed and pulling him tightly into his arms.
Now, in these times when the only gratification is each others' company and affection, they reaffirm those things they spoke in passion. They let each other know they meant every word of it.
A low chuckle. "You are good," he says affectionately. "No doubt you will prove it, later. Possibly in waking me up from our nap."
He exhales, happy, burrowing into Nate's arms and wrapping his own around the archer. From time to time in his life he's had short moments where he thought he might belong, might fit in and be welcome. Here he knows. He belongs with Nate, at his side, his back, in his life. There's nowhere else he'd rather be, and he'd be an idiot if there was.
These moments are his most precious ones, the ones he mentally goes through and treasures all over again after the all-too-frequent moments of judgment and hatred he runs into around Skyhold.
"Would you like that?" he asks against Nate's neck. While he's often fantasized about waking up to Nate having his way with him, or waking up Nate with it, there's the issue of making sure it's what the other wants. "Would you like to wake up with my lips wrapped around your cock? Or, perhaps, you want me to prep myself while you sleep, wake up to find yourself inside me? Anything you ask of me, my love, you'll have."
"Mm." Both pictures are magnificent, but Nathaniel imagines them in specific ways. "If you wake up first, I want you to wake me up with your lips around me. If I wake up first, I would want to wake you up by sliding inside you, rocking gently so that what wakes you isn't the motion--it's the wakening of your blood and body to pleasure you can't quite source until you are fully awake. Or perhaps, if you feel like something different, that is how I will wake up."
"Oh." He shivers at the mental pictures. They're all beautiful, but the third is something of a dare as well and he likes it.
Anders grins against Nate's neck as he relaxes. "Sleep well, and sleep deeply, my love." Wake up first. Why risk it? He's gone with out sleep for far lesser causes, and if he can stay awake until Nate's deep asleep he knows exactly what he wants to do.
Nathaniel smiles and cuddles hard against Anders. He doesn't concern himself too much about who will wake up how, instead contemplating the sound of Anders breathing, the feel of his heartbeat, the warmth of his skin. This may be a nap, but he thinks he is most likely the one who will wake first. If so, his objective is clear. If not, it is even clearer.
He loves the sound of Nate sleeping beside him. For a couple of hours he indulges himself in that, the even breathing, the warmth against him, the fact that the love of his life is here with him. Carefully he brushes Nate's hair back, not wanting to disturb him too early but feeling like watching for a time.
When he eventually feels Nate's got enough sleep to be rested, Anders gets the oil as quietly as possible and scoots down a little, ever so slowly, so that he can slick a finger and take his time working it in. It takes far more care than Nate would have needed for him; he has things up there often enough that it likely wouldn't strike him as unusual, not when he's sleeping next to someone he trusts to protect him. He enjoys the work, though, the knowledge that he's starting to stir pleasure, possibly already starting to let it slip into Nate's dreams. Nate's warm and so tight around him and yet welcoming at the same time and Anders has to fight the urge to kiss the man hungrily and bring him to wakefulness.
After what feels like ages he as a second finger and works to slick Nate's passage, paying gentle attention to the sensitive gland and resisting the urge to play more directly with it. Nate is temptation itself, but it's delicious to do this and hope it's making Nate's sleep all the more pleasant.
By the time he's eased Nate open to the point he thinks he can slip inside, Anders is hard enough that he's starting to ache. With great care he repositions himself behind Nate and presses his cock to Nate's entrance. It's likely the greatest test of patience he's ever had, entering slowly and not kissing the back of Nate's gorgeous neck but he manages. Then it's all slow rocking of his hips and gentle stroking of Nate's cock, taking his time, building everything carefully and anticipating Nate waking up.
Muted dreams. Soft blue light. Silken strokes deep inside, warm in his imagination.
A soft moan comes out of Nathaniel's nose before he is awake. In his dreams, a building and unbearable pleasure invades. What was something odd but engaging has become irresistible and stimulating. His heart is beating harder, and that means he can't stay asleep. The first thing he is aware of is heat behind him. The second thing he is aware of is a touch somewhere inside, pressure where he cannot reach himself. There's another moan as he begins to wake, and another as he realizes what's happening, a hand coming behind to stroke Anders' face. Eyes open barely, lips parting to draw in breath, oh, Anders.
His hand grasps a hip behind him, stilling Anders' movements until he can draw away, turn in his arms, clasp him close and bracket him with his hips, legs open, hand guiding Anders' cock back to where it belongs. He presses in with kisses, shuddering with sensation, as desperate for his mouth as he is for breath.
He's so very pleased with the response, the involuntary noise of pleasure and the way Nate turns to hold him back and welcome him back inside. Anders kisses Nate back hungrily, hand going back to Nate's cock as soon as they're positioned.
"Good," a suck of Nate's tongue, "morning." Then he's back to kissing again, hips thrusting in time with the movement of his hand. He wants to blow Nate's mind and flood him with so much pressure that he's dazed all morning. ...Or rather the rest of the night, since it's still dark out. Nate feels so good against him, warmed and frantic, and after a couple of moments Anders is shifting so Nate's on his back with Anders on top just so he can get more leverage and drive Nate more crazy.
Nathaniel's head tips back at the delicious pressure of Anders against that spot so deep inside. His legs clamp over Anders' hips suddenly, helping to control the speed; he is not the same kind of bottom Anders is.
"You--" kiss, kiss "--you are the best morning surprise anyone ever had." He nuzzles against a golden temple, shaking off sleep quickly due to the racing of his heart. "I thought you were staying awake so I would wake before you," he adds breathlessly.
He laughs, slowing down to accommodate what Nate needs. There's no cause to push Nate, especially when Nate doesn't get the same thing from being pushed as Anders does.
"Please," he says between kisses. "You always have my consent to wake me with sex. This was rare and special. I doubt anyone has ever gotten to see this before, you waking, pleasure already flooding your mind and flushing your body..." Anders runs his hand down Nate's side, following it with his eyes.
"You're stunning, my love." He bends forward to kiss Nate deeply at the same time he thrusts very slowly and deeply in.
No, Nathaniel doesn't get that rush Anders gets when he's pushed. He does get that rush, though, and it's at times like this, when Anders is achingly kind to him, gentle and tender and attentive. Nathaniel has struggled with allowing it, but Anders has always been there with it when he did.
His legs stop directing Anders. His head drops back and his eyes close, attention turned toward the sensations he feels. It helps him to embrace the experience, to avoid feeling guilty and taking control. And when he comes, it's like reaching the crest of a wave instead of smacking into a wall. Every nerve is alive, but there is no pain, and tension only where there needs to be tension.
When he comes back down, his eyes open, and he leans up to kiss Anders, hands caressing and teasing at last, to coax him to the same peak.
Nate is so gorgeous that it could break his heart, and Anders finds himself wondering for the millionth time how it is that he got so lucky to be with this man. Anders grins into the kiss, already trembling from the way Nate's orgasm caused him to clench around his cock.
His hands are barely needed, but Anders welcomes them as he does every bit of affection from Nate. Never will he tire of how Nate makes him feel, never will he tire of trying to make sure Nate feels the same in return.
When he comes, it's quiet, eyes closing despite his effort to keep watching Nate. This is so much better than sleeping around randomly, and the gentle smile he gives Nate when he opens his eyes again reflects that.
"You are my treasure." And he needs to do better to make sure Nate feels treasured. Relationships take more thought and work than he's put into anything save healing and freeing people, but Nate deserves it.
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Date: 2017-03-20 04:03 am (UTC)From:"Oh, my love." Words are getting a little more complicated with the mix of sensation and sight. All of this, all of the ways Nate shows how he loves him, makes him continue to feel like the absolute luckiest person in all of Thedas. For Anders this does just as much as what's going on around his cock, and he's getting close to the edge as he resumes the massage, adding a hint of nails.
"I'm, I'm going to cuddle you better than you've ever been cuddled before."
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Date: 2017-03-20 10:01 pm (UTC)From:no subject
Date: 2017-03-20 10:19 pm (UTC)From:"And I thought I was good," he mumbles, fingers blindly smoothing through Nate's hair. "Come up here to my arms, love."
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Date: 2017-03-20 10:25 pm (UTC)From:Now, in these times when the only gratification is each others' company and affection, they reaffirm those things they spoke in passion. They let each other know they meant every word of it.
A low chuckle. "You are good," he says affectionately. "No doubt you will prove it, later. Possibly in waking me up from our nap."
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Date: 2017-03-20 10:32 pm (UTC)From:These moments are his most precious ones, the ones he mentally goes through and treasures all over again after the all-too-frequent moments of judgment and hatred he runs into around Skyhold.
"Would you like that?" he asks against Nate's neck. While he's often fantasized about waking up to Nate having his way with him, or waking up Nate with it, there's the issue of making sure it's what the other wants. "Would you like to wake up with my lips wrapped around your cock? Or, perhaps, you want me to prep myself while you sleep, wake up to find yourself inside me? Anything you ask of me, my love, you'll have."
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Date: 2017-03-22 02:07 am (UTC)From:no subject
Date: 2017-04-15 04:23 am (UTC)From:Anders grins against Nate's neck as he relaxes. "Sleep well, and sleep deeply, my love." Wake up first. Why risk it? He's gone with out sleep for far lesser causes, and if he can stay awake until Nate's deep asleep he knows exactly what he wants to do.
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Date: 2017-04-16 03:10 am (UTC)From:no subject
Date: 2017-04-16 05:41 am (UTC)From:When he eventually feels Nate's got enough sleep to be rested, Anders gets the oil as quietly as possible and scoots down a little, ever so slowly, so that he can slick a finger and take his time working it in. It takes far more care than Nate would have needed for him; he has things up there often enough that it likely wouldn't strike him as unusual, not when he's sleeping next to someone he trusts to protect him. He enjoys the work, though, the knowledge that he's starting to stir pleasure, possibly already starting to let it slip into Nate's dreams. Nate's warm and so tight around him and yet welcoming at the same time and Anders has to fight the urge to kiss the man hungrily and bring him to wakefulness.
After what feels like ages he as a second finger and works to slick Nate's passage, paying gentle attention to the sensitive gland and resisting the urge to play more directly with it. Nate is temptation itself, but it's delicious to do this and hope it's making Nate's sleep all the more pleasant.
By the time he's eased Nate open to the point he thinks he can slip inside, Anders is hard enough that he's starting to ache. With great care he repositions himself behind Nate and presses his cock to Nate's entrance. It's likely the greatest test of patience he's ever had, entering slowly and not kissing the back of Nate's gorgeous neck but he manages. Then it's all slow rocking of his hips and gentle stroking of Nate's cock, taking his time, building everything carefully and anticipating Nate waking up.
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Date: 2017-04-17 02:01 am (UTC)From:A soft moan comes out of Nathaniel's nose before he is awake. In his dreams, a building and unbearable pleasure invades. What was something odd but engaging has become irresistible and stimulating. His heart is beating harder, and that means he can't stay asleep. The first thing he is aware of is heat behind him. The second thing he is aware of is a touch somewhere inside, pressure where he cannot reach himself. There's another moan as he begins to wake, and another as he realizes what's happening, a hand coming behind to stroke Anders' face. Eyes open barely, lips parting to draw in breath, oh, Anders.
His hand grasps a hip behind him, stilling Anders' movements until he can draw away, turn in his arms, clasp him close and bracket him with his hips, legs open, hand guiding Anders' cock back to where it belongs. He presses in with kisses, shuddering with sensation, as desperate for his mouth as he is for breath.
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Date: 2017-04-17 02:47 am (UTC)From:"Good," a suck of Nate's tongue, "morning." Then he's back to kissing again, hips thrusting in time with the movement of his hand. He wants to blow Nate's mind and flood him with so much pressure that he's dazed all morning. ...Or rather the rest of the night, since it's still dark out. Nate feels so good against him, warmed and frantic, and after a couple of moments Anders is shifting so Nate's on his back with Anders on top just so he can get more leverage and drive Nate more crazy.
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Date: 2017-04-18 02:22 am (UTC)From:"You--" kiss, kiss "--you are the best morning surprise anyone ever had." He nuzzles against a golden temple, shaking off sleep quickly due to the racing of his heart. "I thought you were staying awake so I would wake before you," he adds breathlessly.
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Date: 2017-04-21 08:51 pm (UTC)From:"Please," he says between kisses. "You always have my consent to wake me with sex. This was rare and special. I doubt anyone has ever gotten to see this before, you waking, pleasure already flooding your mind and flushing your body..." Anders runs his hand down Nate's side, following it with his eyes.
"You're stunning, my love." He bends forward to kiss Nate deeply at the same time he thrusts very slowly and deeply in.
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Date: 2017-04-25 12:23 am (UTC)From:His legs stop directing Anders. His head drops back and his eyes close, attention turned toward the sensations he feels. It helps him to embrace the experience, to avoid feeling guilty and taking control. And when he comes, it's like reaching the crest of a wave instead of smacking into a wall. Every nerve is alive, but there is no pain, and tension only where there needs to be tension.
When he comes back down, his eyes open, and he leans up to kiss Anders, hands caressing and teasing at last, to coax him to the same peak.
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Date: 2017-04-25 07:34 am (UTC)From:His hands are barely needed, but Anders welcomes them as he does every bit of affection from Nate. Never will he tire of how Nate makes him feel, never will he tire of trying to make sure Nate feels the same in return.
When he comes, it's quiet, eyes closing despite his effort to keep watching Nate. This is so much better than sleeping around randomly, and the gentle smile he gives Nate when he opens his eyes again reflects that.
"You are my treasure." And he needs to do better to make sure Nate feels treasured. Relationships take more thought and work than he's put into anything save healing and freeing people, but Nate deserves it.